Towards Freedom from Racism

I share with you this spiritual journey that Jesus has taken me on towards freedom from racism. I am still on that journey. The undoing takes repetition, humility and determination. However, the joy of knowing I am moving towards becoming “part of the solution” instead of remaining “part of the problem” keeps motivating me.

There is also grace, God’s amazing grace, which is literally transforming me, by the power of Jesus death and resurrection. So often we treat things like racism as a “political issue” which requires hard, mental work (aka doing it in your own strength) which, at most, results in “well managed behavior so we don’t offend” but our hearts remain unchanged.

I have come to see that healing from racism is a spiritual issue, in which the Holy Spirit can renew my heart and mind from the inside out as I intentionally commit to these steps of repentance. Pastor Craig Duvel from Pineland Baptist Church outlined these, Repentance Steps, which can be applied to everything that robs us from being our whole selves as originally designed by God. I have applied these to the sin of racism.

As this is my prayer based on my journey some of these may be relevant to you, others may not. My hope is that the Holy Spirit will show you which actions and thoughts God wants to free you from. Let us lay down defensiveness and embrace the gift of repentance that leads to times of refreshing. (Acts 3: 19)

Inner Healing meets Social Justice - Forgiving my racist ancestors

My faith community has been exploring forgiveness and repentance on a deep personal level and I have been wondering what it might look like to apply these truths to social problems and systemic injustices. Although I acknowledge systemic injustices exist, I can only engage with these as an individual. I can’t take on responsibility for the whole unjust system. However, I want to explore what it looks like if an individual takes responsibility within an unjust system, and in particular focusing on the brokenness of racism. 

I will be using my experience of Jesus’s life and teachings as a framework for this spiritual exercise, as these have been vital in my own personal journey of healing and freedom. However, before I begin, let me briefly explore the key concepts of forgiveness, repentance and prayer.

Forgiveness before repentance - what comes first?

"For if you forgive other people when they sin against you, 

your heavenly Father will also forgive you. 

But if you do not forgive others their sin, 

your Father will not forgive your sins."  

Matthew 6: 14-15

Our being wronged and our own wrongs are so intertwined that usually we need to pursue both forgiveness and repentance. My pastor has, from experience, seen that often people struggle to find freedom from thoughts/actions that they don’t want to do (but end up doing) despite many prayers of repentance. He proposes that this stuckness could be because they haven’t forgiven the original injustice that took place against them, which in turn, has set in motion lies, feelings and emotions that drive their wrong behaviour from which they now seek freedom.  Being guided by this wisdom, I shall start with a prayer of forgiveness. I admit, it does feel counter-intuitive, but it has been fruitful for me in other areas of my life and so I trust the process. 

So, based on this above premise, before I deepen my repenting from believing the lie that "white is better and black is less" (Please read more about this here before you continue), let me start by forgiving my ancestors for their role in setting up or participating in racist systems that still plague our nation today.